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Lazy Pineapple Banana Loaf

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This loaf is one of my laziest thrown together recipes that turned out AMAZING and all I used was a blender (lol) no mess!!!! Pineapple Banana Loaf YOU’LL NEED 2 cups flour 1 teaspoon baking powder 1 teaspoon baking soda 1 pinch Sea salt 1 can diced pineapple 1 tablespoon vanilla extract 1 tablespoon honey 2 large ripe bananas 1/2 cup vegetable oil 1 extra large egg (or two small eggs) Preheat oven to 350°F Grease loaf pan In a Blender* Blend all wet ingredients (on dough setting) including 1/2 can of the pineapple pieces AND the full amount of liquid from that can. Set aside the rest of the pineapple pieces for later Add all dry ingredients and blend until smooth. Take mixer piece out of blender and add the rest of the pineapple pieces. Mix gently with a spatula. Pour mixture into loaf pan. Bake at 350°F for one hour or until golden brown at the top put a long toothpick in the loaf, make sure it comes out clean. (If it does …

Headed home, Initial thoughts

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Overcoming the fear of the unknown. It’s been 12 years since I’ve been home. Procrastination? Lack of time? Nothing to visit? No reason to be there? Just fear, it’s like when you hype up something for so long in your head, you keep building it up until you make yourself afraid of taking that initial chance. Kind of like losing your virginity. 

The last time I was home, it wasn’t good. My mother was having an episode and at 16, I ended up having to greyhound to my aunts place in Santa Cruz, that day and that 6 hour bus ride was one I’ve tried to get out of my head for years. So here I am today, happily married, planning for a future, making preparations for our future family. All the meanwhile theres this nagging anxiety in the back of my mind, knowing its my duty, with all the work I’ve done on myself throughout these years, mental growth, emotional growth and processes to drop my blame, victimization and learning to live with PTSD …